Hey everyone. Hope everyone is good and had a good week.
Todays topic is about friends and the impact they can have you. The good and the bad.
When I was growing up I always had friends until I reached the final year of school and became distant from everyone. I became paranoid and hated everyone I looked at and became very angry towards them.
After I left school and went to college and started work, I made new friends, I came out as gay and started living my life to the fullest……….
Well that’s what I told myself. Still something didn’t feel right in me.
Skip forward 10 years, I have a small group of friends in Newcastle and my best friend is currently living in Inverness with her family. I started experiencing psychosis and don’t realise what’s happening to me as I just thought I was depressed and nothing more serious.
I end up isolating from people including family, spending days in the dark listening to the voices driving me more and more crazy, and hearing from none of my so called friends.
These so called friends when I told them what was happening after I saw a specialist, basically wrote me off not caring and after that never heard from again.
This destroyed me inside. I confided in these people and they confided in me. I never realised I was disposable to them and this taught me a great lesson. Sometimes its better to have a small circle then a large one. Less people to disappoint you and less stress for you at times.
Don’t get me wrong friends are a wonderful thing and can you deal with shit with their support. But my own personal experience just finding that one friend to lean on and let them lean on you can be just as great in a way.
Hope everyone enjoyed this and has a great weekend